Saturday, March 3, 2012

Acceptance

(Forgive the typos etc, this post is unedited and I didn't read it over)

Growing up I was never a skinny girl. I've never been. Looking at my family, no one is skinny, and genetically, I'm destined to be thick.
However I've spent the last few years trying so many diets and gimmicks, hopping from one gym to another, all in pursuit of being a slimmer me. So far I have not achieved that purpose. I'm still a UK 14. (US 10)

I don't see myself being a size 6 anytime in this life. It's time to accept me for who and what size I am. No more buying clothes one size smaller to 'encourage' myself to fit into them. A full closet of unworn clothes are a testament to that fact.
Don't get me wrong, I love my self, I love my body. I believe I'm truly beautiful and it helps that I'm constantly being complimented on my good looks. (HumbleBrag)

However, society has pressurized me into thinking I've to be a certain size to be acceptable. I see girls all around me doing extreme diets, from mastercleanse to atkins to fluid only, just to shed those pounds and I begin to wonder, why can't I do these things? It's hard, I've attempted so many of those, and what happens. I lose max 10lbs, then it creeps back up.

I love food, I love cooking and I love eating. I don't see myself passing over so many good food in the world. Don't get me wrong, I'm a believer in healthy eating. I'm not a junk food eater. I love home cooked meals with a glass of wine. My occasional dessert treats with my girls can't be missed. See why I can't be on a veggies only diet?

On the plus side (no pun intended), I love exercising. From Spinning, to body pump, to jogging, call me I will be there. I make sure I get in 3 days a week. So I'm not an exercise hater.

So yea I am comfortable and happy with my body but when days I get 'playful' comments like "you have such a pretty face, you will be so much prettier if you lose a little weight"
Yea they are tiring and make me think for a second how I may have body issues.

I got up from bed this morning after a 2hr night sleep with the realization that I may not be a size 6, or an 8 but I do love my body, I feed it right, I exercise and I don't deprive myself of food. Some may say I'm fat, thick, plus size, whatever, but I am comfortable in my skin. If the pounds drop by my healthy lifestyle, fine, if they don't, fine. I will still love and accept myself.

No more buying clothes sizes smaller in the hope of fitting into them. I'm going to go straight to my closet right now and take out all the undersized clothes I'm probably never gonna fit into anytime soon. Time to clean out my closet and buy things that flatter my apple shaped body.

Embracing my body and myself.

P:s Happy New year, hope the year has been good to everyone. Sorry for the long silence. Life's storm got in the way. I didn't drown, I'm a survivor.

9 comments:

  1. You're amazing just the way you are.

    i have been a 16 before, i tried to loose weight, even went on a quincy/ayoldele slimmers thingy when it was the hype. But i gave up and chose to enjoy my body the way it was. I hate exercise, i hate diets... my family genes, after a certain age, we drop the weight like it's hot.
    truth is, people would always have their opinions, some tell me i looked better chubby... others love me skinny.
    what i love is loving my body in whatever size it is, as long as i'm healthy, then bring it on.

    You are beautiful jare!!!

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  2. We often forget that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. When you talk about your genes and how the women in your family are, it's obvious that being very skinny is not in your genes. I will tell you that you're one of the most beautiful women out there and I'm glad you're embracing your God-given skin. Now if you were eating junk, not taking care of your temple and becoming obese due to neglect, that would have been a bad thing.

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  3. Love this post!!!! Stay healthy and eating well...that's all that matters!

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  4. Just do your best to be healthy and loving yourself is a big part of that.

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  5. :) This made me smile for you. Welcome back. I've missed you.

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  6. Enjoy your body jare, I am doing same.

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  7. Stop comparing yourself on the model in magazine's cover. They are the manifestations of society's fake beauty standard. Think about Adele who blatantly defend herself when she was labeled as "fat".

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  8. portion control.... don't say you love food and scoff two or three plates of jellof rice down.(thats the mistake a lot of people make). The eat loads and go to the gym afterwards (doesnt make any difference).. if you control your portions and eat lots of veggies along with your 3days @ the gym.. you'll be fine

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